August Meditations

I met a woman in trouble on the streets of Camden, helped her to get away from her abusive boyfriend … More

Argentina

You know when you’re on the bus and you’re coming back from the supermarket (because, after 4 attempts, you finally … More

Maintenant

It’s not that everything is wrong, it’s just that nothing is right. Nothing is right.

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Days clean and sober: 52 Current mood: highly unstable; oscillating minute by minute; simultaneously energised and exhausted; wanting to do … More

Pages

Too lethargic and anxious to type out all the nonsense I’ve been writing lately, so posting my recent handwritten journal entries instead:

Fear & Loathing in North London

I’m really struggling today – struggling to deal with this sickening sense of self-loathing, struggling to let go of things, struggling to accept … More

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Days sober: 1 :'( 24 hours since my last drink. F*ck. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck it all. F*ck. Things that are good … More

Sober Ramblings: Weather, Battle Cruisers & Jerboas

Days sober: 10 I feel like I know my illnesses, in the way that I can usually predict an impending … More

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Mood: 6 out of 10 – I am feeling vaguely optimistic today. I am psyching myself up to grab Recovery by … More

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Mood: 4 out of 10 – I am merely existing today. I am making no contribution to the world nor … More