Uh-Oh

I promised myself that it would never get this bad, that I would never live this way. But it’s happened, … More

Fear and Loathing in North London

37 days clean and I lapsed. It was too easy, I gave in too easily. “You really just want a … More

Frazzled

“Love is merely a madness; and, I tell you, deserves as well a dark house and a whip as madmen … More

121015

First day of rehabilitation and detoxification Yesterday I looked after my niece and nephew in the morning, which was lovely … More

Again

I’ve got to quit drinking. Again. Too many people have told me so: family, friends, acquaintances, psychiatrist, GP, social worker, liaison officer, strangers, … More

Any Excuse

Monday = Monday Club (UK’s biggest pub chains and others cut the price of drinks), sometimes a Bank Holiday Tuesday … More

#655321(2)

Days sober: 1 :'( 24 hours since my last drink. F*ck. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck it all. F*ck. Things that are good … More

God is a DJ

I’m so sorry. To you, to myself, to my friends, to my family. I crumbled. I caved. I’m writing this … More

#655321

Days sober: 32. I have been sober for one month. I am relieved, I’m relieved that I made it. I almost … More

Sober Ramblings: Weather, Battle Cruisers & Jerboas

Days sober: 10 I feel like I know my illnesses, in the way that I can usually predict an impending … More