Mundane Things That Immediately Make Me Think of a Specific Dead Person

washing my hair over the edge of the bath / orange squash and/or lemonade / unscrewing, emptying, refilling a hot … More

Strangeland

“Strolling on the plateau of life, desperate for the mountain, I never thought that I would get this far. It’s … More

Part 1 Part 2 I have learnt that when I’m buzzing with instructions of intense self-sabotage, if I ignore and … More

Read part 1 here Not a lot of people cheat death once, let alone 3 or 6 or x or n … More

Content warning: recurrent theme of suicidal ideation Days and weeks and months, indeed whole years, that I never wanted, expected … More

DESIDERATA Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far … More

Sometimes I feel bad about doing what I’m doing, existing—I shan’t say living—how I’m existing: my days consist of dreaming, … More

Confiscate the knife This heart refuses to stop Blood coagulates This body won’t let me go Waking is devastating After … More

Death on my mind all of the time. I wonder if, when I’m dead, I’ll be obsessed with finding ways … More

In the split second / Before we crashed I finally discovered / What it feels like / To be alive. … More