Fear and Loathing in North London

37 days clean and I lapsed. It was too easy, I gave in too easily. “You really just want a … More

Any Excuse

Monday = Monday Club (UK’s biggest pub chains and others cut the price of drinks), sometimes a Bank Holiday Tuesday … More

Fear & Loathing in North London

I’m really struggling today – struggling to deal with this sickening sense of self-loathing, struggling to let go of things, struggling to accept … More

22 & Brave

‘Forever 21’ is almost over. It’s my birthday tomorrow and I’m not feeling good about it at all. I’m going … More

Easter Sunday

As usual, I have been thinking about who I am. I was just sitting up on the roof, looking at … More

mad, bad, sad girl

After 46 days booze-free, yesterday I got blind drunk and I am not pleased about it at all. I don’t … More

Darling, darling, your head is a mess…

I’ve done it again. That is, I’ve made the same mistake for the thousandth fucking time, under the alcohol-induced illusion … More