The Realest

Here it is: the realest thing I’ve ever written:

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I feel so far removed from the girl who wrote this: (It’s a page from an old diary of mine … More

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Argentina

You know when you’re on the bus and you’re coming back from the supermarket (because, after 4 attempts, you finally … More

Maintenant

It’s not that everything is wrong, it’s just that nothing is right. Nothing is right.

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Days clean and sober: 52 Current mood: highly unstable; oscillating minute by minute; simultaneously energised and exhausted; wanting to do … More

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Too lethargic and anxious to type out all the nonsense I’ve been writing lately, so posting my recent handwritten journal entries instead:

Fear & Loathing in North London

I’m really struggling today – struggling to deal with this sickening sense of self-loathing, struggling to let go of things, struggling to accept … More

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Days sober: 1 :'( 24 hours since my last drink. F*ck. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck it all. F*ck. Things that are good … More

C O L O U R

Days sober: 23 This morning’s appointment with my GP was uneventful. MRI scan was normal, bloods were normal, lithium level was 0.6. … More