Want

“What do you want?” “I want to chew on your bones // to go back to 2008 and stop her … More

Ways In Which Your Body Stopped You From Living Your Dreams

You wanted to be a prima ballerina but childhood malnourishment & dire poverty made your bones too weak, your tiny … More

Liberteens

“Located in a peaceful and secluded part of Southgate, Priory Hospital North London is set within a striking Grade I … More

(Pro-)/(Retro-)gression

1 I fill the void with three liters of cheap white wine and morph into a monster in a mini … More

Corkboard

Got a corkboard the size of a dining table painted one side of the frame bright yellow the face to … More

Diary: February

CONTENT WARNING: MENTAL ILLNESS, SELF-HARM, SUICIDE, SUICIDAL IDEATION, DRUGS/ALCOHOL, DISORDERED THINKING I have decided to publish brief excerpts of the … More

Half-Life

Ashley told us that every time you do a line of cocaine it makes loads of microscopic holes in your … More

14 Days

14 days of self-isolation, not because you are infected with the COVID-19 virus but because you: are seriously depressed // … More

Fruitcake

I don’t know if this ache is heartbreak (a) or cocaine (b) or my body physically manifesting all the mental pain … More

Advice For Alcoholics

ONE / The woman with the ugly shoes tells you that “alcohol and depression don’t mix.” She is wrong. They … More