High Enough

I am standing on the roof. I am smoking a cigarette. I should be at work but I am too … More

City Triptych

1. Thursday night in the city / 10pm-ish I think / I’m busy / doing nothing / watching / the … More

Another Time at Camden Lock

It’s a strange feeling, this, to be left alone in the middle of a crowd, to be abandoned by people … More

070321

content warning: main theme of suicide, suicidal ideation, depression, death I am supposed to die today. Sunday 7th March 2021. … More

Self Portrait (2014)

Lately I haven’t been able to find the right words for “all of this” so I’ve been turning to visual … More

Argentina

You know when you’re on the bus and you’re coming back from the supermarket (because, after 4 attempts, you finally … More

Pages

Too lethargic and anxious to type out all the nonsense I’ve been writing lately, so posting my recent handwritten journal entries instead:

Fear & Loathing in North London

I’m really struggling today – struggling to deal with this sickening sense of self-loathing, struggling to let go of things, struggling to accept … More

Sober Ramblings: Weather, Battle Cruisers & Jerboas

Days sober: 10 I feel like I know my illnesses, in the way that I can usually predict an impending … More

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