030616

My dad is still alive and I am still alive and everything is awful but we’re trying. My god, we … More

Wonky Wednesdays

“Hell is empty And all the devils are here.” – The Tempest, I.ii.215-6 God, I fucking love The Tempest, it really is … More

Maintenant

It’s not that everything is wrong, it’s just that nothing is right. Nothing is right.

Fear and Loathing in North London

37 days clean and I lapsed. It was too easy, I gave in too easily. “You really just want a … More

Monday

I know that I’m going to die, but sometimes I think that I’m going to die. (I’m not sure which … More

Fear & Loathing in North London

I’m really struggling today – struggling to deal with this sickening sense of self-loathing, struggling to let go of things, struggling to accept … More

#655321(2)

Days sober: 1 :'( 24 hours since my last drink. F*ck. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck it all. F*ck. Things that are good … More

God is a DJ

I’m so sorry. To you, to myself, to my friends, to my family. I crumbled. I caved. I’m writing this … More