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content warning: main theme of suicide, suicidal ideation, depression, death I am supposed to die today. Sunday 7th March 2021. … More

I Gave Myself September (2)

Read part 1 here Not a lot of people cheat death once, let alone 3 or 6 or x or n … More

Content warning: recurrent theme of suicidal ideation Days and weeks and months, indeed whole years, that I never wanted, expected … More

[Part of the Body Series] “Have you ever counted them?” “No.” “You should count them,” “Why?” “It’ll be interesting,” “I don’t think … More

Pain depends on me to be its host: suffering is the needy child, and I’m the parent who never says … More

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12:26 a.m. I know that I am dying but I’m dying to feel alive, too. […] 04:39 a.m. My greatest … More

On nights like this I often wonder where you are. I never had to wonder this before because I always … More