My Feelings Are Fighting Amongst Themselves Again

The fucked-up family of feelings that reside inside me are fighting amongst themselves again / squabbling siblings trying to out-shout … More

Somebody

Stumbling out of the pub last night we heard the helicopter before we saw it. “Air ambulance,” he said. “Trouble … More

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Last night a man told me he was going to crush my windpipe under his boot and laugh while he watches me take my last breath. I told him to do it. I was disappointed when he didn’t.

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I’m scared that one day I’ll forget what I’ve always been so angry about– then my life will no longer … More

Benches

“Why are you crying, poppet?” Because I am so devastated that there is no document that exists that can tell … More

Dear F*cking Diary

WHY THE FUCK ARE PEOPLE LIKE DONALD TRUMP AND KYLIE JENNER STILL ALIVE AND MY DAD IS DEAD? WHY? WHYWHYWHYWHWYWHWYHWYFUCKINGWHY? … More

Fear and Loathing in North London

37 days clean and I lapsed. It was too easy, I gave in too easily. “You really just want a … More

Fear & Loathing in North London

I’m really struggling today – struggling to deal with this sickening sense of self-loathing, struggling to let go of things, struggling to accept … More

Sober Ramblings: Weather, Battle Cruisers & Jerboas

Days sober: 10 I feel like I know my illnesses, in the way that I can usually predict an impending … More

Friday/Cryday (again)

Ugh, today my mood has been oscillating so wildly – it’s as if my brain and my heart have been … More