“Strong and Sturdy”

CW/TW: suicidal ideation. The grotesque irony of realising that you do indeed need to be hospitalised for your own safety … More

Notebook Fragments: 2018-2022

Content warnings: Mental illness, suicidality, self-harm, disordered eating, addiction, death, sexual assault. Notebook Fragments: 2018-2022 (after Ocean Vuong) x Obsessively … More

Diary Entries – 11/52

Monday super sad again today, choosing names for children that I’ll never have. Tuesday thinking about that time we took … More

Stuff & Things: Spring 2021

And perfect sentence from Lucinella by Lore Segal: “Sweetness suffuses my blood like a substance that melts jealousy in retrospect.” … More

Strangeland

“Strolling on the plateau of life, desperate for the mountain, I never thought that I would get this far. It’s … More

I Gave Myself September (3)

Part 1 Part 2 I have learnt that when I’m buzzing with instructions of intense self-sabotage, if I ignore and … More

A Poet’s Edit

Going through my dad’s old writings, transcribing his poetry to be posted on his blog (coming soon!!), I found an … More

040120

I am always really surprised when I realise that I’m alive [that I’m alive to begin with / that I’m … More

Birthday Letters

December: the month of birthday letters: letters that, this year, I cannot write. Now You Are 9. Now You Are … More

Happy Death Day! (3)

3 years. Sometimes it feels like 3 days, sometimes 3 weeks, sometimes a decade, but always far too long ago … More