I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
And I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Coz I’m being taken over by The Fear…– Lily Allen
Those lyrics perfectly describe how the paranoia, psychosis and dissociation I’m experiencing makes me feel about everyday life. I’m scared and exhausted and painfully confused. I want to hide, but wouldn’t mind having someone to hide away with. After all, misery loves company. And my loneliness may be half of the problem.
Treacle Heart 
Feeling lonely is very difficult when you are struggling with other physical and mental problems. Sending you warm, safe hugs of connection and hoping you experience sufficient rest to feel at least a little better.