I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
And I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Coz I’m being taken over by The Fear…
– Lily Allen
Those lyrics perfectly describe how the paranoia, psychosis and dissociation I’m experiencing makes me feel about everyday life. I’m scared and exhausted and painfully confused. I want to hide, but wouldn’t mind having someone to hide away with. After all, misery loves company. And my loneliness may be half of the problem.