0.3 Is Fuckery

10/03/14
Serum lithium level
= 0.4
17/03/14
Serum lithium level
= 0.3
This is fuckery
My stats are low
And so is my mood
I sit here in this
fucking room
and tap tap tap
Away with my
French manicured
hands, banging on
keys, typing out
words that mean nothing
to me or anyone.
I want to cry but
I physically cannot
I cried all my tears
over you
I’m over you
I’m under someone else
I’m under the weather
I’m under nourished
I’m under the influence
I’m sinking
Drowning
Clamouring
for attention
for your love
for your words
Clamouring
means nothing
I remain unheard.