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I am taking part in #NaBloPoMo

I don’t know if I am well enough to do NaNoWriMo. Obviously, I am supposed to start writing today. Part of me feels like I can do it, but another part of me feels like I really, really can’t. I’ve got a dissertation to write, poetry to submit, intense reading for two courses, a critical edition to compile and edit, a blog to maintain: should I add writing a novel on top of all of that?

Along with my workload, I am exhausted from my relapse. My body feels completely drained. I have run out of aripiprazole which controls my bipolar, and I don’t have enough money to buy more. My hardship funding was supposed to come through on Wednesday but I still haven’t received it. I don’t physically have £8 to buy more meds.

So, I’ve got 97p in my bank account, a workload bigger than space, and supposedly a novel to write. What to do, what to do.
Any suggestions from my followers? 

 

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  1. Sometimes any outside pressure is too much pressure. Not everyone benefits from it. There is often quite sufficient pressure from within. Sometimes, relieving oneself of some of it – “letting oneself off the hook” as they say nowadays is the very best course of action – or inaction. Sounds as if you have a huge load already. The novel can wait till your degree is over. Degree work cannot. Don’t live or write for others. It is you who needs to survive and stay well in all this. Don’t let your readers become bullies! You are not here to serve them! The degree and staying well are the only priorities as I see it.

  2. I would say, give it a go. Don’t let it overwhelm your school work, but continue on. Even if it’s not at the fast pace you wish, you’re still doing it. It will still be a novel even if it takes longer than 30 days. If you find writing 1,800 words a day is too much for that day or week, just outline your intentions for the day/week and keep that framework for your novel building. It’s good to have goals and proceed. I think you have it in you to keep up with it, just don’t put too much on yourself, you’ve got plenty of time. Take it nice and easy and know when to back off a little.

  3. I have a suggestion. Do your best to try and stop focusing on the negative aspects of your life and pay closer attention to the positive. I am an aspiring writer myself and I really like some of your work. Focus on that and channel your negative energy into creativity! This is what artists do, they use their suffering and emotional turmoil to create art. Van Gogh didn’t have pills for his mental illness, he had canvas. Just make sure you keep sharp objects away from your ears. Stay strong, keep faith in yourself and, when things get to be too much, just do what I do and say ‘To Hell with it!’. What else can we do?

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